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I read this New Yorker article about friendship, ‘The Trouble with Friends’. Feeling ko, it was a reality check. Narealize ko, my hope and aim for friendships were too idealistic and childlike. Ang nakatatak sa utak ko, “Gusto ko lang naman ng someone ngayon kung pano kami ng grade school bestfriends ko noon.” Yung updated kami with every single little ganap ng isa’t isa. Yung tanggap namin yung pettiness, we talk every single day, walang nakikipag-compete, we want to hangout as much as possible, etc.
For some naive reason, I still hope for this kind of friendship. But this article opened my eyes to the truth: adult friendships are just different. Old friendships won’t be as tight-knit as before, and some will just slowly falter. Your friends, no matter how inseparable you were, and no matter how close you are until now, will end up in different geographic locations—ako pa nga yung isa sa mga unang umalis, so ano bang nirereklamo ko?

I have found my people! I am so happy that my choices led me to finding them. I invited my online-to-real friend, Xiao, for brunch to thank her for helping me with Almond’s trip to Canada. Tapos sakto, merong stamp caravan event sa favorite stationery store ko (26 Market)—na malapit lang dun sa brunch place. We went to the stationery store after eating. There, I met a few fellow journalers. One thing led to another, and I got invited to join their bi-weekly planner hangout.
Feb 10-14

Few months ago, pinapapili ko ang Papa kung uuwi ako sa 60th birthday nya, or uuwi ako ng Pasko. Mahagad kasi masyado kung twice ako uuwi this year. Sabi nya Pasko na lang daw ako umuwi. Lahat kasi ng relatives namin na nasa abroad ay uuwi ng Pasko, so parang ang gustong sabihin ng Papa ay mas sulit kung Pasko ako uuwi.
After some weeks, tinatanong ko kung anong gusto nyang regalo. Ang sagot nya, “Gusto ko ay nandito ka.” Tina-try nyang sabihin in a joking manner pero alam kong he means it. Ang hindi nya alam, uuwi talaga ko sa birthday nya kasi hindi ko matiis na hindi umuwi huhuhu.


What I appreciate about this holiday season is, it was a bit chill. Wala masyadong strong emotions, may stress pero na-manage naman. Similar last year, wala kaming pakana for the New Year. Ang overwhelming na masyado pag nag-prepare pa kami for New Year’s Eve, kasi sunod-sunod ang Christmas parties plus pareho pang December ang birthdays namin ni Kenneth.
Calgary, AB • July 30

Day 2 at Calgary! This was supposed to be a chill/rest day dahil sa haba ng byahe kahapon. Ako lang talaga yung may ganap. Nung nalaman ng parents ni Kenneth na pa-Downtown ako to meet someone that I met here in the blogosphere, Jolens, gusto na rin nila sumama haha. Ihahatid lang daw nila ko then magiikot na sila sa Downtown.

Sobrang tagal ko nang gustong bumili ng slime kay @snoopslimes. Nanghihinayang lang ako. Kaya nung first sweldo ko, sabi ko bibili na talaga ko nung slime. Naka-order na ko at excited na kooo!

Dernier dimanche, nous sommes allés au café Clementine avec nos amis. Il faisait très froid. Nous sommes arrivé à 13h30 et il y a avait 1 heure de waiting time. Donc, nous sommes retournés à notre voiture pour attendre.
Last Sunday, we went to Clementine Cafe with our friends. It was so cold. We arrived at 1:30PM and there’s a 1 hour waiting time. So we went back to our car to wait.
Hay. Life is short. Rest in peace ate Tin 🤍 I feel guilty that we drifted apart because you’re a wonderful and kind person. We had a lot of good memories and fun conversations. You were like a big sister to me. Nakakahinayang at nakakalungkot na wala ka na 😔 I miss you.
