Gleniz da Menace
Dernier dimanche, nous sommes allés au café Clementine avec nos amis. Il faisait très froid. Nous sommes arrivé à 13h30 et il y a avait 1 heure de waiting time. Donc, nous sommes retournés à notre voiture pour attendre.
Last Sunday, we went to Clementine Cafe with our friends. It was so cold. We arrived at 1:30PM and there’s a 1 hour waiting time. So we went back to our car to wait.
Napatigil ako sa book reporting ko ng ‘Recapture the Rapture’ nung nabasa ko ulit yung isang hinighlight ko.
I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve (or save) the world and a desire to enjoy (or savor) the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.”
E. B. White, author of the children’s classic Charlotte’s Web
“Di makatulog sa gabi sa kaiisip..” Anong oras na di pa rin ako makatulog. Nakatulog ako ng 8PM, nagising ako ng 12:30AM. Halos 2hrs na kong nagpipilit bumalik sa tulog pero kung ano-anong tumatakbo sa utak ko na mga random things. Sana makatulog na ko in 3.. 2.. 1.
Bigla kong binalikan ‘tong app na ‘to na isang taon ko nang inabandona. Napagusapan kasi sa journaling hangout kahapon yung gratitude journal tas naalala ko na may ganito nga pala ko. Naalala ko kung gano ako ka-excited sa app na ‘to noon tapos binili ko pa yung premium version (mura lang naman). Nakapagsulat ako kanina at natapos ko ngayon so share ko lang yung entry ko for today.
May pinapanood ako at bigla kong naalala yung time na na-stranded ako sa Incheon Airport. Konting konti na lang nasa Pilipinas na ko tapos nagkaproblema pa grrr. Pinipigilan ko yung emotions ko that time pero nung kausap ko na ang Mama, wala umiyak na ko. Ang layo na kasi ng nilakbay ko (18 hrs!) tapos papabalikin lang ako?! Pero yung best part, wala akong ibang narinig sa Mama kundi, “Makakauwi ka.” Kahit 99% sure akong hindi na ko makakauwi, ang sarap pa rin pakinggan nung konting hope na baka nga makauwi ako. As a recovering pessimistic, kelangan ko talaga ng mga positive people sa buhay ko. At bilang ganti, kelangan ko rin mas maging positive para sa ibang tao.
This is the 3rd day na constant yung knot sa chest ko. Siguro made-describe ko sya as parang kinakabahan without the dugdug of the heart. Sabi ng Mama magpa-consult na raw ako at baka may problema ako sa puso. Magpapa-sched ako mamaya.
Hindi ito ang first time na naramdaman ko ‘to kaya may tatlo akong naiisip na rason:
Gumawa akong banana bread. Masarap naman pero mas sasarap sana kung matamis yung saging na ginamit ko. Pinahinog ko naman sya pero hindi talaga gaano matamis ang mga saging dito. Pero ang moist tapos ang dami kong nilagay na chocolate chips. Pag dumating na yung inorder kong pagkamahal-mahal na sea salt flakes, may bago akong ita-try na cookie recipe.
I realized that I may have gone overboard with my journaling. Suddenly, I wanted to capture all my thoughts, every single one of them—but I have too many thoughts which makes documenting everything unrealistic. After that uneasy realization, I try to remember what makes journaling therapeutic for me. Journaling empties my mind and relaxes me, leaving me refreshed and unburdened. I think what’s important for me to remember is that journaling is a tool and not a chore. I have to be at peace with the fact that it’s impossible to capture and document everything, that it’s okay to forget things here and there. Except this one. This is quite important. I should also learn to trust my self that when it comes to truly and absolutely important things, I won’t forget.
A couple of months ago, I started paying for Etsy ads. What it does is when a potential customer search for something that’s similar to what I offer, my listing will get prioritization and will be placed on the top search. I alloted $1 per day for these Etsy ads hoping to drive more sales ($1 a day is a lot for my small sticker shop). During these months of running ads, I barely make anything. Every sale I make goes to these ad payments and it’s not even driving more sales. There were times when I even owe them money because my sales weren’t compensating for the ad payments. So a few weeks ago, I stopped paying for the ads. Seeing my money disappear like that, having a negative balance on my payment dashboard, it was starting to get depressing.
I learned yesterday that women are smarter because we orgasm better. Anong connect you might ask? Tinatamad akong i-explain. Basta nabasa ko lang.
Gleniz da Menace