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The Child-Free Life

Minsan, I feel defensive sa desisyon naming hindi magkaanak. At yung minsan na yun ay ngayon. I think it’s due to some recent events, kasi ever present pa rin yung mga shocked reactions ng mga tao pag nalaman nilang wala kaming anak at wala kaming planong magkaanak. Siguro pag hindi ko na na-witness yung mga ganung comments and reactions, saka lang ako titigil magsalita tungkol dito. Since marami nang spokesperson ang mga parents, gusto ko naman maging spokesperson sa mga couples na nag-decide hindi maging parents, o kahit dun sa mga nagdadalwang isip.

One time habang nasa bakasyon kami, nakita ko yung meme na ‘to at naka-relate at natawa ako, so ni-repost ko.

In case wala kayong Instagram, this is the meme. Also, I’m jealous of you.

Pero the moment na ni-repost ko, bigla akong na-conscious. Naisip ko, “Hala, baka offensive sya sa mga friends kong parents. Okay lang kaya yun?” Tapos naisip ko, my momshie friends post their babies all the time. They are proud to say, despite the hardships, how wonderful and fulfilling parenthood is. So hindi rin siguro masamang i-express, despite the judgment and criticisms, kung gano rin ka-wonderful yung kabilang side? Kaya with an anxious heart, I let it exist on my IG stories for 24 hours.

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Ramblings #49 | I Trust You

I have parts of myself that I’m not a fan of, and I’m sure I have not-so-great traits that people see clearly but I’m oblivious to. But I realized that I have to accept my temperaments and trust that people can handle me, or better yet, let me know if I’m being too much—or too little. I have to trust that people who care about me will *kindly* bring my blind spots to my attention. People who genuinely want me to improve will not tolerate my shittiness.

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Adult Friendships

I read this New Yorker article about friendship, ‘The Trouble with Friends’. Feeling ko, it was a reality check. Narealize ko, my hope and aim for friendships were too idealistic and childlike. Ang nakatatak sa utak ko, “Gusto ko lang naman ng someone ngayon kung pano kami ng grade school bestfriends ko noon.” Yung updated kami with every single little ganap ng isa’t isa. Yung tanggap namin yung pettiness, we talk every single day, walang nakikipag-compete, we want to hangout as much as possible, etc.

For some naive reason, I still hope for this kind of friendship. But this article opened my eyes to the truth: adult friendships are just different. Old friendships won’t be as tight-knit as before, and some will just slowly falter. Your friends, no matter how inseparable you were, and no matter how close you are until now, will end up in different geographic locations—ako pa nga yung isa sa mga unang umalis, so ano bang nirereklamo ko?

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Relaks Pt. 2

I am sooo overwhelmed. Wala na kong work at hindi na ko pumapasok pero parang 18 hrs akong nagtrabaho kahapon. 3:30AM gising na ko. Sabi ko magmo-morning routine muna ako para kalmado ang simula ng araw ko, kasi alam kong madami akong aasikasuhin para sa paglipat namin. Pero nung napa-check ako ng e-mail ko, ayun, nagdire-diretso na hanggang 9PM. Parang ang dami kong adrenaline kahapon. Hindi ako nagugutom. Pag wala akong kausap at ka-email, maglilinis ako ng apartment. Akala ko mahaba yung magiging tulog ko kasi ang dami kong ginawa. Pero eto, gising na ko ng 4AM.

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October Recap

I knew October would be a great month, and it did not disappoint 🤍

Halloween 🎃

The major thing that happened this month was our first US trip! I think almost all of my October entries are related to this trip. And yes, hindi pa rin kami nakakamove on ni Kenneth. We still talk about it every chance we get 😂

OCTOBER DIGEST
  • I think I might have overshared when I wrote about *toot* in my life updates. I’m trying to imagine it from a reader’s perspective and wondering if it was a bit too much. Personally, I don’t feel any shame or awkwardness—probably because I know that only 5 people will have access to it hehe. Either way, I’m just concerned about the reader’s threshold for TMI.
  • We were still in the US when I wrote my Thursday letter, so I talked a little bit about our experience going to Billie Eilish’s concert and how we were enjoying our vacation.
  • Had fun doing our quarterly expense report, especially creating the visuals for it. The most refreshing part was sharing our real numbers.

    Though a bit tedious, I also shared how much we spent on our US trip. I found myself a bit puzzled when I saw the total. Ganito ba talaga dapat? It was enlightening, to say the least. Speaking of expenses, I also shared my NYC haul. It’s mostly stationery goods.
  • I’m enjoying writing so so much right now. I talked about my commonplace book a few days ago and how I call it my ‘life notes’.

As always, thank you for reading.

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My Little NYC Stationery Haul

I was excited to go stationery store hopping in New York—especially whenever I see Raquel’s NYC posts and videos. Well, I was excited in general because it was our first time visiting the States. Being first-timers, there were a lot of things in our itinerary, but I’m glad I was able to squeeze in some time to go to stationery stores.

I managed to check out four shops, and I wasn’t really looking for anything in particular—I just went with whatever caught my interest. It might be dangerous to wander into these stores without some kind of a list, but my journaling friends tell me that I have the most restraint when it comes to stationery shopping, so I trusted myself that I won’t go overboard 😁

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Ramblings #48

I’ve been writing a lot for my blog over the past few days. I don’t know why I’m so excited about it. It feels like I’m doing something important when I’m actually not. I guess I just have a lot to say to no one in particular, and I’m glad to have the space to let it out. I’m living for that moment of possibility when someone, somewhere, would read it out of curiosity. I’m aware a handful of people read the blog, but it still feels unbelievable. I don’t even care if they like it or not, I’m just thankful for their time.

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Vacation Hangover

Today is back to work day after a week-long vacation. Work became more bearable today kasi may hangover pa ko sa bakasyon namin. Fresh pa yung memories kaya mapapangiti ako every once in a while. Easily one of the best vacations we’ve had kasi ang ganda nung mga sights (kahit crowded), ang sarap nung food (UGH), we had good company (thanks friends and cousins!) at most importantly, hindi kami nag-away ni Kenneth—except for that one instance na very mild lang naman (buti na lang andun si Nick kasi napigilan yung init ng ulo namin).

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Ramblings #47

Good morning! 🤍

Aantayin ko pa dapat isulat sa next ‘happy things’ list ko but I KENAT contain my happiness. Sobrang thank you sa mga bagong nag-subscribe sa paid tier. HUHUHU (totoo ‘tong “huhuhu” kasi napaiyak talaga ko). Salamat salamat!!

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Day 2: Osaka Castle + Umeda Sky + Ichiran | Japan 2024 Series

Feb 21

Yung mga pinuntahan namin ngayon, ito yung mga popular na attractions. Akala ko mga napuntahan ko na pero hindi pa pala. Kaya ang saya na first time namin pare-pareho.

Morning festivities

Hindi pa sumasagot yung Airbnb host tungkol sa shower. Kasi nakalagay naman sa listing nila may hot water. Iniisip ko 8 days pa kami dito tapos ice tubig yung ipanliligo namin araw-araw?? Huhu noooo!