Umiiyak ako habang ine-explain kay Kenneth kung pano ko natutunang i-embrace ang pagka-crybaby ko. Hindi kasi aware si Kenneth na di porke’t umiiyak ako, negative na agad. Minsan kasi pag naguusap kami at may ine-explain ako sa kanyang intense moment, or pag nagshe-share ako ng feelings, may kasabay na pagiyak. Minsan positive naman yung rason (tulad nung kinekwento ko sa kanya na I feel loved pag mine-mention nya ko sa workmates nya) pero maiiyak pa rin ako. Basta anything na emotional, automatic iyak.
Category: Wellness
Since maaga akong nagising ngayon, naisipan kong basahin ang newsletter ni James Clear. Parang binasa yung utak ko kasi sakto yung mga quotes dun sa newsletter!
I am still feeling some anxiety, and I have a collection of quotes (from books, newsletters, and podcasts I consumed) ready for me to read when I have this overwhelming emotion. Here’s one that made me smile and helped me ease up a little bit:
“I’ve found that it’s of some help to think of one’s moods and feelings about the world as being similar to weather.
Here are some obvious things about the weather: It’s real. You can’t change it by wishing it away. If it’s dark and rainy it really is dark and rainy and you can’t alter it. It might be dark and rainy for two weeks in a row.
But. It will be sunny one day.
In the same way that one has to accept the weather, so one has to accept how one feels about life sometimes. “Today’s a crap day,” is a perfectly realistic approach. It’s all about finding a kind of mental umbrella. “Hey-ho, it’s raining inside: it isn’t my fault and there’s nothing I can do about it, but sit it out. But the sun may well come out tomorrow and when it does, I shall take full advantage.”
Stephen Fry
Categories
Read, Listen, Watch #2
A collection of things I want to be reminded of:
🎧 Life is an endless series of course corrections.
Categories
Cozy Autumn
Sobrang daming geese kanina! Naririnig ko sila so binuksan ko yung bintana. Feeling Mary Oliver ako kasi napapansin ko, pag madaming geese sa sky at papunta sila sa isang direction, uulan. I’m sure maco-confirm ko ‘to sa Google pero ayoko. Natutuwa lang akong i-observe yung activity nila.
And true enough, after a couple of minutes, umulan nga. Ang sarap ng moment na ‘to. Kanina pa kong 6AM gising, 8AM na ngayon at tulog pa rin ang mga tao, gloomy at umuulan, pagsilip ko sa bintana, ang gandang tingnan nung orange-yellow-brown leaves ng mga puno, pinatugtog ko yung ‘No Lyrics Chill’ playlist ko sa Spotify, at ito, nagsusulat. Hays ang saraaaap.
Categories
Read, Listen, Watch #1
A collection of things I want to be reminded of:
📖 The church of minding one’s own business
👀 Stop obsessing about the future, let things flow
📖 Routines are not chores, they are life + Finding solace in books (idea #3 and quote #2)
It’s already September (ambilis) and I am revisiting my 2023 Game Plan today. June pa lang naiisip ko na ‘tong gawin pero may work ako so wala talaga ko masyadong time magmuni-muni. Basta yung past few months I am always preoccupied with something at nag-procrastinate ako to do my mid-year review. I feel like ngayon, ito na yung tamang moment.
Let’s start with the theme
Ang theme ko this year ay:
Categories
Planning is a Luxury
I was doing my very late mid-year review a while ago (yet to be published) at after kong matuwa sa mga na-accomplish kong goals, na-stress ako after. Dun kasi sa 13 goals na sinet ko in the beginning of the year, dalwa lang yung fail, tapos isa na lang yung natitirang work in progress. So parang sa isip ko, isa na lang? Meron pang 4 months na natitira this year. Ano pang dapat kong gawin?
Pinapanood ko yung vlog ni Heart at Chiz tapos may nabanggit dun na, “Breaking up with a true friend would certainly hurt.” Nag-standout sakin yung words na “true friend”.
Recently I had a falling out with a friend of 20+ years and ngayon, I really feel and know that I’m better off. Initially I was hurt pero ang bilis kong naka-move on. At yung rason siguro ay dahil I recently discovered na hindi na pala sya nagfi-fit dun sa description of a “true friend”. Kaya siguro ang dali nyang bitawan.
Let’s take a break from writing about our recent trip at mag-recalibrate. Since natapos na nga yung contract ko sa previous work ko, I’m currently on a break. It’s been 2 weeks since our trip at ang ginagawa ko lang ay:
Gleniz da Menace 