Gleniz da MenaceReading my anxious-filled journal entries back in January is making me anxious today. At the same time, I can’t help but belittle these old feelings. I find myself judging my past self, at kung bakit ko ba kinaka-bother yung mga bagay na yun dati. I feel arrogant, which in turn leads to fear. Kasi what if bumalik ulit ako dun? After my PH vacation, I’m in a better headspace now, and I want to preserve this current state. I am more confident, not easily triggered, and more at peace.
Bago ako pumunta sa theme ko this year, babalikan ko muna ng very quick yung late mid-year check ko for 2023. May isa pa kong goal na na-accomplish so from 77%, 85% na ang success rate ng 2023 game plan ko! Yayyy! Nakaka-excite tuloy mag-goal setting next year. Alam ko sabi ni James Clear na “forget about setting goals”, pero kanya-kanya lang yan. Kung san tayo happy.
Edit: 81% lang pala kasi nagdagdag pala ko ng 3 pahabol goals at di ko na-achieve yung 36-hour fast. So out of 16 goals, I achived 13 😊
Excited na rin akong isulat ang 2023 highlights ko. Nasimulan ko na sya several months ago pero ang dami ko na sigurong nakalimutan. I’m looking forward to reminisce the past months. Pero ito na muna ang game plan ko next year.
Kausap ko last week si *secret* na super naging close ko na, at na-trigger talaga ko dun sa advice na binigay ng ninang nila sa kasal. Ughhh nakakainis talaga. Bakit ganun ang tinuturo nila sa mga babaeng bagong kasal?? Parang ganito yung advice:
I-make sure na presentable ang mga asawa natin kasi pag hindi sila presentable tingnan, nagre-reflect yun ng masama sa babae, na parang hindi natin sila inaasikaso at inaalagaan.
A collection of things I want to be reminded of:
🎧 Life is an endless series of course corrections.
A collection of things I want to be reminded of:
📖 The church of minding one’s own business
👀 Stop obsessing about the future, let things flow
📖 Routines are not chores, they are life + Finding solace in books (idea #3 and quote #2)
It’s already September (ambilis) and I am revisiting my 2023 Game Plan today. June pa lang naiisip ko na ‘tong gawin pero may work ako so wala talaga ko masyadong time magmuni-muni. Basta yung past few months I am always preoccupied with something at nag-procrastinate ako to do my mid-year review. I feel like ngayon, ito na yung tamang moment.
Ang theme ko this year ay:
I was doing my very late mid-year review a while ago (yet to be published) at after kong matuwa sa mga na-accomplish kong goals, na-stress ako after. Dun kasi sa 13 goals na sinet ko in the beginning of the year, dalwa lang yung fail, tapos isa na lang yung natitirang work in progress. So parang sa isip ko, isa na lang? Meron pang 4 months na natitira this year. Ano pang dapat kong gawin?
Pinapanood ko yung vlog ni Heart at Chiz tapos may nabanggit dun na, “Breaking up with a true friend would certainly hurt.” Nag-standout sakin yung words na “true friend”.
Recently I had a falling out with a friend of 20+ years and ngayon, I really feel and know that I’m better off. Initially I was hurt pero ang bilis kong naka-move on. At yung rason siguro ay dahil I recently discovered na hindi na pala sya nagfi-fit dun sa description of a “true friend”. Kaya siguro ang dali nyang bitawan.
Let’s take a break from writing about our recent trip at mag-recalibrate. Since natapos na nga yung contract ko sa previous work ko, I’m currently on a break. It’s been 2 weeks since our trip at ang ginagawa ko lang ay:
Gusto ko yung natutunan ko sa ‘Waking Up’ app:
Parang sabi wag daw tayong ma-feel bad if we’re missing out. Kasi missing out means you get to focus on just a few things or people, hence, living a richer life. Kasi pag yes lang tayo ng yes sa lahat, or collect lang tayo ng collect ng friends/acquaintances, sabog sabog yung experience. We’re spreading ourselves too thin.
Naihalintulad ko yung fear of missing out sa paginom ng mango juice na overly diluted with water. Hint na lang nung mango yung malalasahan ko. Nakakabitin at hindi enjoyable. Unlike pag pure mango juice, ang sarap, ang rich ng flavor. So tingin ko ang sinasabi dito, mas masarap ang buhay if you only commit your time to a few important things/events/hobbies/people.
At dahil dyan, nagkaron ng another level of meaning for me yung saying na, “Less is more.”
Gleniz da Menace