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Books Magical Realism

The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle by Haruki Murakami | Book Review

QUICK AND TAMAD SUMMARY:

Ang book na ‘to ay tungkol sa isang lalake (si Toru Okada) na in the beginning, hinahanap nya lang yung nawawalang pusa ng asawa nya (Kumiko), hanggang sa yung asawa na nya yung nawawala. First book ko ‘to from this author.

Nung una, sumasakay pa ko eh. Ang tolerable pa. Pero habang tumatagal, lalong lumalala. Lumalala yung pagka-boring and pagka-nonsense. Siguro nga hindi para sakin ‘tong libro na ‘to. Pero nalalamangan ng pagka-curious ko yung pagka-ayaw ko sa book. Kaya feeling ko naman matatapos ko ‘to kahit pilit na pilit.

START OF SPOILERS

Ang daming weird characters. May weird prostitute, may weird manghuhula, may weird na teenager. Pero lahat naman sila weird.

I’m currently at 41% and UGHHH. Hirap na hirap talaga kong ituloy-tuloy. Okay ako sa weird pero bakit kasi ang boringgg. Sobrang hindi pa likeable yung main protagonist and hindi ako maka-relate sa kanya. Sobrang apathetic nya. Kaya din siguro ang hirap. Wala akong makuhang connection sa kanya. And yung mga nangyayari sa book, sobrang labo. Hindi lang siguro abot ng intellect ko yung gusto nyang iparating. Pero kahit feeling ko nagsasayang lang ako ng oras, tatapusin ko ‘to. Nanghinayang na ko sa na-invest kong oras.

Siguro si May Kasahara na lang yung saving grace for me. Kung wala yung character nya, hindi ko na talaga alam. Sya lang yung character na interested ako. The rest parang mga bato. Siguro pag nagbasa ako ulit ng isa pang book ng author na ‘to, alam ko na kung anong i-eexpect.

Isingit ko na rin yung na-sad ako dun sa story ni Lt. Mamiya. Yung kahit buhay pa sya after surviving everything and getting through all those traumatic experiences, feeling nya walang meaning yung buhay nya because he already died on that well. Huhu. Eto yung mga rare moments na may na-feel ako while reading this book.


So tapos ko na.

Clearly, this book is too deep for me to fully absorb and comprehend. Parang yung buong book is isang mahaba at weird na panaginip (or bangungot). Most of the time walang sense pero yung nasagap ng brain ko is yung themes of introspection. Hanggang dun lang. Hindi ko na sya kayang i-expound.

Atat na atat na kong matapos ‘to kasi ang haba. 600 pages. Siguro 75% of the time hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayari pero weirdly, nung 95-98% na ko dun sa book, parang ayoko pa sya matapos. Parang nasa momentum pa kong magbasa ng kawirdohan.

Baka yung next ko basahin na book from this author is yung Norwegian Wood, as recommended by one of the book club members, Danielle.

My status updates on Goodreads

RATING [2.25 🌟]

Alam kong generally mataas yung review nung book na ‘to pero ayokong mag-pretend na naintindihan ko. Hindi pa abot ng brain cells ko yung ganitong klaseng books. Nagpapadala naman ako dun sa book. Wala akong expectations. May mga parts na gusto ko yung pagka-weird nya and may mga parts na nalulusaw na yung utak ko para pilitin na mag-make sense yung binabasa ko.

QUOTES

Curiosity can bring guts out of hiding at times, maybe even get them going. But curiosity usually evaporates. Guts have to go for the long haul. Curiosity’s like a fun friend you can’t really trust. It turns you on and then it leaves you to make it on your ownβ€”with whatever guts you can muster.

Toru Okada

When someone gets on my nerves, the first thing I do is transfer the object of my unpleasant feelings to another domain, one having no connection with me. Then I tell myself, Fine, I’m feeling bad, but I’ve put the source of these feelings into another zone, away from here, where I can examine it and deal with it later in my own good time. In other words, I put a freeze on my emotions. Later, when I thaw them out to perform the examination, I do occasionally find my emotions still in a distressed state, but that is rare. The passage of time will usually extract the venom from most things and render them harmless. Then, sooner or later, I forget about them.

Toru Okada

I’m not one hundred percent sure about any of this, and I don’t have any amazing solutions. All I’ve got is this feeling.

Toru Okada

If people want to lose all sense of direction, the best thing that you and I can do is let them. We have more important things to do.

Noboru Wataya

If people lived foreverβ€”if they never got any olderβ€”if they could just go on living in this world, never dying, always healthyβ€”do you think they’d bother to think hard about things, the way we’re doing now? I mean, we think about just about everything, more or lessβ€”philosophy, psychology, logic. Religion. Literature. I kinda think, if there were no such thing as death, that complicated thoughts and ideas like that would never come into the world.

May Kasahara

I remembered laughing out loud when I read this:

May Kasahara: The women sell their hair to the wig companies. That’s how they earn their dowries in some places. The whole world’s so weird! The guy sitting next to you might actually be wearing the hair of some woman in Indonesia.

By reflex, I and the B-man looked around at the others in the car.


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Books Life

Current Reads

Pakiramdam ko malapit na kong maging guru kakabasa ko ng mga self help books πŸ˜‚ Nagsimula sa Digital Minimalism tapos sinundan ko ng Atomic Habits. Digital Minimalism para mabawasan yung bad habits ko sa paggamit ng phone and Atomic Habits para makapag-create ako ng good habits and para na din mabago yung iba pang bad habits.

Lapit na ko sa goal ko na 15 books this year

Bakit ba ngayon ko lang ‘to naisip? Siguro kung sinimulan kong magbagong buhay pagka-resign na pagka-resign ko, dami ko na sigurong na-achieve or ang laki na siguro ng improvement ko. Pero ayokong mag-dwell dun. At least bumabawi naman ako ngayon.

Siguro naman, gone are the days yung mga drama ko sa previous blog posts ko na naaasar ako sa sarili ko, na wala akong disiplina, kasi ang procrastinator ko, etc. Sana naman tapos na yang mga dialogue ko na ‘yan. Kasi nakatulong yung book para makita ko ang mga bagay bagay in a different light.

Siguro yung pinaka nag-stick sakin na nabasa ko sa Atomic Habits so far (di ko pa sya tapos), is yung pagsasabi natin sa sarili natin ng mga bagay about ourselves like, “Procrastinator kasi talaga ako.” or “Hindi kasi talaga ko magaling sa directions.” or “Wala kasi akong self control.” Okay so kung ganun, eh di wala na pala talaga kong pag-asa?? Mag-stick na lang ako sa ganun kasi yun na talaga yung identity ko? Mali. Sabi ni author, “Our identities are not set in stone.” We have the option to edit and improve and expand our identities. And na-realize kong tama nga talaga. Nili-link kasi natin yung bad habits natin sa identities natin.

Eto example. Yung sabi ko kanina na mahina ako sa directions. Bukambibig ko ‘to lagi. So usually naka-rely lang ako sa mga kasama ko or kay Kenneth most of the time pagdating sa directions. Pero bakit nung pumunta kaming Japan ng mga friends ko or nung pumunta kaming Hong Kong ng Mama ko, ako yung navigator? So ang nangyayari pala, pag merong tao na alam kong sila yung willing mag lead ng way, nagigi akong dependent na lang sa kanila and I tend to chill. Hindi ko pinapagana yung isip ko pagdating sa directions kasi anjan naman sila.

Hays I miss Japan

Pero when it’s time na ako sa grupo yung mas nakakaalam or for example, saming dalwa ng Mama, na mas ako yung nakakaintindi ng Google maps or nung subway app kasi hindi naman sya techie, I feel the need to step up. And kaya ko naman pala talaga. So it’s a choice. Pagkasama ko si Kenneth, choice ko na hindi maging magaling sa directions and sa Mama ko naman, choice kong maging magaling.

Hays I miss traveling with Mama kahit lagi kaming nagtatalo

Plano ko naman basahin next yun The Four Agreements by Miguel Ruiz. Ngayon sobrang enjoy na enjoy ako magbasa. Mapa-fiction or non-fiction.

And regarding dun sa concern ko na pano kung yung mga friends ko ay ma-hassle-an dahil hindi na ko nakikipagchat masyado which will result to not communicating at all, turns out it’s all in my head. Kasi they had positive responses about it. Humingi pa ng copy si Nick nung Atomic Habits. Ewan ko lang kung babasahin nun πŸ˜„

Since naiisabuhay ko na yung clichΓ© na saying na, “Time is gold.” And next ko namang susubukan ay yung, “Health is wealth.” Eto yung isa ko pang bad habit na gustong mabago kasi ang hilig ko sa junk food and sa matatamis.

Kitang kita sa breakfast ko ngayon

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Family

Favorite Conversations #3

GLENIZ: Pano kung after kong i-send sa friends ko yun and malaman nila na hindi na ko masyadong nakikipag-chat, wala nang makipag-usap sakin?

KENNETH: I’m here.

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Books Insights Non-Fiction Personal Development

Digital Minimalism by Cal Newport | Book Review + Notes [Part 5: Extra Notes and Rating]


So tapos ko na yung book. Nalito pa ko kasi nakalagay dun sa Kindle 64% done pa lang ako tapos pag-flip ko ng page, Acknowledgements na. Super dami palang notes sa huli and references kaya akala medyo matagal ko pa matatapos.

Since madami na din akong nasabi about sa book na ‘to, meron pa kong mga extras na gustong idagdag na nabasa ko pa after kong matapos sulatin yung parts 1-4.

Nabanggit yung importance of solitude. I think kaya nya ‘to in-include kasi yung magta-try ng digital declutter, they could get bored and will find themselves reaching for their phones. And kaya may whole chapter about solitude is for us to realize siguro na sometimes, okay lang na walang gawin. Hindi mo kelangan i-fill yung every second of your life.

Regular doses of solitude, mixed in with our default mode of sociality, are necessary to flourish as a human being.

Digital Minimalism by Cal Newport

Nabanggit dito na solitude or being alone with your thoughts helps us regulate our emotions and process stuff. And medyo natawa and na-guilty din ako dito sa following quote:

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Family Life

Driving Lessons + Video Calls

Road test ko na next week sana makapasa akoooo. Since September, almost every week akong nagd-driving lessons. Magastos pero kelangan ko talaga kasi hindi ako natutong mag-drive sa Pinas. So sana makapasa talaga ako para no more additional gastos.

Pero kung hindi man ako makapasa, masaya pa din kasi marunong na talaga kong mag-drive! As in nakakaliko na ko, nakakapag-drive na ko sa highways, marunong na kong magpark with little assistance. Tinuruan din akong mag-parallel park pero more practice pa. Yun. Malalaman sa Nov 12 kung pasado ba ko.

Balita naman sa aking digital minimalism journey (complete review here), so far okay talaga ko. Hindi ako super nahihirapan mag-adjust. Nafi-feel ko yung JOMO (joy of missing out). Pag nahahapyawan ko yung red notifications, hindi ako nate-tempt i-check. Super konting temptation lang kasi out of habit pero kayang kaya. Hindi ako naaatat makita.

Too early to celebrate kasi 2 weeks pa lang pero in fairnezzz

And na-practice ko din yung sinabi dun sa book na mag-set ng schedule on when to use social media and almost 100% ko syang nasusunod. Nagka-deviation lang nung in-upload ko yung vlog ko kasi nag-post ako about it sa IG pero after kong i-post, hindi ko na tinignan kung may nag-like ba, sino na bang nakakita, etc. Ang layo ko na talaga sa mga dati kong gawi.

And since may sched na nga ako ng paggamit ko ng social media, sched ko ngayon na mag-check ng Messenger (every Friday PM and Sat AM) plus tawagan ang family ko. Ang Kuya, as always, mas nauuna syang tumawag pero after namin mag-usap, tinawagan ko si Tricia at Ate Beng2. Ang saya lang. Sarap makipagusap sa kanila ng hindi sa chat lang.

Bukas naman ng umaga ay time for my friends. Sasabihan ko ang isa sa kanila, kung sino mang available, na tumawag sakin. Kasi unlike family, nakakahiya na bigla na lang akong tumawag kasi baka busy sila. At least kung sila ang patawagin ko, ibig sabihin non available na talaga sila.

And kaya tawag kasi na-convince ako nung book (Digital Minimalism) na conversations (through calls, video calls, face to face) are better than connection (liking someone’s photo, short comments na same lang ng comments ng iba and chatting). So I will almost eliminate chatting and will stick to calling. I will also refrain from liking, commenting and reacting. And I believe it’s great advice.

I know, kung ako yung old self ko, iisipin ko, “Hassle. Bakit di na lang chat??” Eh sakin mas better na ang calls eh. Kung ayaw mo kong kausap eh di wag. Kung gusto mo kong kausap, magtawagan tayo. And yun na din yung point. Mas may effort ang conversations. It will show kung sino ba sa friends mo ang magbibigay ng effort na mag-make ng time and makipag-usap sayo. And yung nakalagay naman sa sched ko, at least once a month lang. It’s not as if every other day magta-try akong makipagtawagan. Sa families ko naman at least twice a month.

Kaya sobrang na-appreciate ko ngayon ang Kuya. Kasi ang Kuya, almost everyday yun tumatawag. Ngayon ko lang na-realize, nakaka-flatter na yung free time nya sa umaga, na pag tulog pa yung mag-iina nya, ako yung pinipili nyang kausap. Love you Kuya!! And si Tricia din, yung bunso naming kapatid, siguro mga 3-4x a month sya tumatawag and almost never ako yung nag-initiate sa mga tawag na ‘yon. Kaya kanina, ako naman yung nag-start. At kasama na din dun ang Mama, Papa at si Kim kasi magkakasama naman sila sa bahay. Saya lang sa feeling. This digital minimalism is working so well for me.

Random Pics:

Si Kenneth lang umubos πŸ˜‚
Eto naman sakin. Masarap naman pero nagsisi ako. Natakam lang ako.
Ooohh fancy
Sarap. Pero di ko sinunod recipe. Nag-dagdag ako ng asukal para sumarap.
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Books Insights Non-Fiction Personal Development

Digital Minimalism by Cal Newport | Book Review + Notes [Part 4: So Anong Dapat Gawin?]


Nung nag-start akong basahin ‘to, ang gusto ko lang talagang mangyari is mawala yung uncontrollable urge ko to always check my phone. Pero ang dami kong nakuha sa book na ‘to.

Sobrang necessary na diniscuss muna sa book lahat. It started with identifying the addictive behaviors, the reason behind it, and pano sya dapat i-approach which is yung strategies and principles. And eto na yung time para i-introduce naman yung concrete steps on how to start. From Paleolithic brains to economics, at this point, gets na gets ko na talaga. Parang hindi ko na kelangan ng further explanation. I’m sold!

Very important na maintindihan munang mabuti yung mga diniscuss before this para kapag gagawin ko na yung ‘digital declutter’, mas strong yung reason bakit ko ‘to ginagawa. Mas may conviction behind it. Which makes it more doable and sustainable.

The Digital Declutter Process

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Books Insights Non-Fiction Personal Development

Digital Minimalism by Cal Newport | Book Review + Notes [Part 3: Minimalists vs Maximalists]


Ang freeing nung phrase na you will “happily miss out on everything else.” Naalala ko yung pinakinggan ko na podcast medyo recently lang. First time ko narinig yung term na JOMO.

Replace FOMO with JOMO (Joy of Missing Out). When everybody is off drinking and making shallow conversations, you are actually doing something deep and meaningful that brings more value to yourself and maybe to other people as well.

The Minimalists Podcast [Episode 250.5]

Sobrang tinamaan ako dito. And hindi pa nakatulong na andito ko sa ibang bansa. Medyo na-lessen na rin naman simula nung nagkapandemic kasi nga ang dalang na lumabas ng mga tao.

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Books Insights Non-Fiction Personal Development

Digital Minimalism by Cal Newport | Book Review + Notes [Part 2: Bakit Tayo Nagkaganito?]


Almost 1 week na since nag-start ako na baguhin yung unhealthy habits ko and so far, okay naman. Napapanindigan pa.

So balik ako dun sa book, meron daw iba’t ibang “ingredients” bakit nga nakaka-hook ang technology or social media. Two of those:

  1. Intermittent positive reinforcement

Eto na nga yung unpredictable rewards na sinasabi which releases more dopamine. Back to the slot machine analogy.

It hurts but it’s true 😭

And ang interesting neto. Nananadya talaga sila.

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Life

Monthsaries + Screentime Improvements

Napapadalas ako dito sa blog ko kasi parang ang dami kong gustong i-kwento. Ang ibig sabihi ba non ay I’m living an interesting life kahit 95% of the time ay nakakulong lang ako sa bahay? Ang sayang isipin na hindi ako nabubulok kahit nandito lang kami lagi sa apartment.

  • So ang isa dun, nagcecelebrate pa din kami ng monthsaries

Alam kong madaming nakokornihan or pwede ring bitter lang sila kasi yung partner nila KJ. Pero ako natutuwa ako. And alam kong si Kenneth din. So nung last monthsary namin (9yrs and 6mos), bumili ako ng cronuts. Mga ganyang tipo ng pagcecelebrate lang naman. Mostly bibili lang ng masarap. Ang sarap nung ferrero cronut!!!

SARAP!

Ang since matagal na kami at lumipas na ang kilig at magic at ang mga grand gestures, somehow, nareremind kami na maging extra sweet pag monthsary namin. It’s a monthly reminder kung gano na kayo katagal and the fact na magkasama pa din kayo.

  • Shop news

Nakakatuwa nung araw na may dalwang umorder sa shop ko na ang total is $100. That’s a first. Sana araw araw ganun.

Thank you!

Going steady pa din naman ang online shop ko. May mga araw na walang orders may mga araw na sunod sunod. Pero hindi pa ko satisfied sa sales ko. Feeling ko may kailangan pa kong gawin.

  • Super improved na ng screentime ko

Ayokong pangunahan pero kitang kita ko yung improvement sa pag-gamit ko ng phone simula nung sinimulan kong basahin yung Digital Minimalism na book. Life changing talaga. From 7-9 hrs/day ko sa phone, naging 2-3 hrs na lang. Sobrang woah.

11:58PM yung screenshot so almost saktong 1 week

Pero nga, ayokong pangunahan. But I am hopeful na mapapanindigan ko ‘to.

All-time high nung Tuesday
Tapos bawing bawi nung Saturday. Amazing!
  • Random pics
Laser eyes πŸ˜‚
Struggling with this book: The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle
Sweetsicle. Picturan ko daw sila.
One of my favorite Japan snacks! Available na sya sa Asian store 😍
I have great lugaw memories ❀️
Naisip ko lang bigla mag-watercolor 😊
My recent digital drawing
Gandang tingnan. Tingin lang.
Love you so much kitties
Tried a new meal kit
Happy 34th anniversary MaPa!
Driving lessons today
Parallel parking
Na-feel ko lang. Ganda ng kulay.
Kaumay yung filling!!
Our new throw pillow na nangangagat πŸ˜‚
Di ko alam kung bakit pero super love ko β€˜tong shirt ko na β€˜to from Uniqlo
Good morning
Cute receptacles from Goodfood
First time to use black garlic. Manamis namis.
Ordered some ready-to-blend smoothies. Nagustuhan ko β€˜to hindi super tamis.
Buti pa si Walnut lap cat paminsan minsan
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Books Mystery YA

Two Can Keep a Secret by Karen McManus | Book Review

This is our book club pick for October and kakatapos lang namin mag-discuss about it.

SUPER QUICK & TAMAD SUMMARY:

May serial killer sa town nila na pumapatay ng magagandang babae. Ang bida ay si Ellery na mahilig mag-play detective. Kasi feeling nya may connection yung pagkawala ng aunt nya from 20 years ago dun sa recent murders.

At first, kala ko super YA vibes. Yung typical highschool ganaps na ang annoying nung mga characters. Pero hindi naman sya naging heavy sa ganon kaya naging okay naman. Nag-focus talaga yung author sa suspense/mystery aspect which is good. Nag-enjoy ako manghula.

START OF SPOILERS

Naaasar ako kay Ellery kasi labas ng labas. Kita na nga na may killer on the loose. Although very typical yun sa mga horror movies, na parang nawawala sa tamang pagiisip yung character tapos lalabas pa din ng kwarto or ng bahay na as if ang tapang tapang nya.

Nafrustrate pa ko nung itutuloy pa din yung homecoming dance. Bakit itutuloy?? Bakit hindi sila nagiisip? Pero it turned out, wala naman nangyari. Pa-effect lang na feeling mo may mangyayaring masama nung araw na ‘yon.

And ang useless na lang din nung pagka-worry ko for Ellery kasi hindi naman sya yung target talaga nung killer. Si Brooke talaga (recent victim).

Sobrang dami kong napagbintangan na killer sa book na ‘to. Pero may tumama naman sa hula ko. Yung mga obvious suspects like Ryan and Vance or even Declan, inalis ko na sila sa list ko kasi ang dali naman kung sila na agad. Dumaplis sa isip ko na si Peter yung killer kasi dinescribe sya ni Ellery as, “good looking” and “charismatic”. So naisip ko, ah so mukang papasa ‘tong matandang ‘to sa mga teenage girls. So dun na-form yung theory ko na baka may secret relationship sila ni Lacey noon (the second victim).

Mga 85% into the book, naumay na ko manghula. Matatapos na wala pa ding hard clues. Pero shortly after, ni-reveal na din na si Peter na talaga.

So eto na nga yung ending. Yung last line na, “I thought she was your mother.” Super chillz! Yung akala mo tapos na kasi na-reveal na yung killer pero may twist pa sa huli.

My status updates sa Goodreads while reading the book πŸ˜†

RATING [3.5 🌟]

So dahil sa last line na ‘yon, imbis na 3 out of 5 stars yung ibibigay ko, nagi syang 3.5 stars. Walang lingering effect yung story for me. Yung tipong after ko basahin irerecall ko pa yung mga series of events? Hindi sya ganon for me. After ko matapos and ma-woah sa ending, okay na na ko.

Book club meeting

QUOTES

[I found this part sweet.] Your brother saved you, Nana had said. She was right. I just didn’t realize which one.


Our next book is The Devil and the Dark Water by Stuart Turton. Suspense/mystery ulit so I’m excited!