To soothe my anxious heart:

To soothe my anxious heart:

Reading my anxious-filled journal entries back in January is making me anxious today. At the same time, I can’t help but belittle these old feelings. I find myself judging my past self, at kung bakit ko ba kinaka-bother yung mga bagay na yun dati. I feel arrogant, which in turn leads to fear. Kasi what if bumalik ulit ako dun? After my PH vacation, I’m in a better headspace now, and I want to preserve this current state. I am more confident, not easily triggered, and more at peace.

Since maaga akong nagising ngayon, naisipan kong basahin ang newsletter ni James Clear. Parang binasa yung utak ko kasi sakto yung mga quotes dun sa newsletter!

I am still feeling some anxiety, and I have a collection of quotes (from books, newsletters, and podcasts I consumed) ready for me to read when I have this overwhelming emotion. Here’s one that made me smile and helped me ease up a little bit:
“I’ve found that it’s of some help to think of one’s moods and feelings about the world as being similar to weather.
Here are some obvious things about the weather: It’s real. You can’t change it by wishing it away. If it’s dark and rainy it really is dark and rainy and you can’t alter it. It might be dark and rainy for two weeks in a row.
But. It will be sunny one day.
In the same way that one has to accept the weather, so one has to accept how one feels about life sometimes. “Today’s a crap day,” is a perfectly realistic approach. It’s all about finding a kind of mental umbrella. “Hey-ho, it’s raining inside: it isn’t my fault and there’s nothing I can do about it, but sit it out. But the sun may well come out tomorrow and when it does, I shall take full advantage.”
Stephen Fry
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Cocou! It’s been a long time. I feel like mon français has little improvement. Je dois plus pratiquer outside mes cours de français. Mais, j’ai trouvé une amie who’s helping with mon français. Nous met sur Instagram. Nous nous envoyons des messages voice. J’aime écouter son accent et ses phrases. J’espère que nous serons de bonnes amies.
Hey! It’s been a long time. I feel like my French has little improvement. I need to practice more outside my French classes. But, I found a friend who’s helping with my French. We met each other on Instagram. We send each other voice messages. I like to listen to her accent and her sentences. I hope we will be good friends.

Ngayong malapit na kong umalis (bukas na), apat na emotions ang nararamdaman ko ngayon: