Pinanood ko yung documentary ni Billie Eilish kasi napakinggan ko sa WUWJAS podcast na super ganda raw. Eh wala akong Apple TV+ so finally in-avail ko na yung 1 year free trial kahit matagal na kong aware na merong ganun. Parang hindi kasi magaganda yung shows dun. Parang yung pinaka okay na ata is yung kay Jen Aniston/Steve Carell/Reese Witherspoon na The Morning Show. Although di ko pa rin yun napapanood. Nasagap lang ng radar ko.
Anyway, sobrang ganda ngaaa! Hanggang ngayon may lingering effect pa din yung documentary na yun. Ang full title nya is Billie Eilish: The World’s a Little Blurry. Feeling ko ang worth it na magbayad ng one month subscription of Apple TV+ para lang mapanood yun. Ganda talaga! After ko mapanood yun parang biglang nagkaron ng spark yung creativity ko. Naatat ako bigla mag-paint at gumawa ng something na artistic. Nakaka inspire yung magkapatid. Bukod dun, pinakita talaga yung vulnerabilities ng isang music artist. Super ganda rin ng editing. Basta panoorin nyo na! Hindi ako super Billie Eilish fan pero nagustuhan ko talaga ng sobra. One of these days papanoorin ko ulit yun.
I thought being a full-time artist was all painting and fun and endless flow of creativity—but it’s not. Well yes, it’s sometimes that—but it’s also discipline when you’re not in the mood to create, not getting discouraged even when your relatives have no clue what you’re doing and why you chose to do this, consistency, self-compassion when you feel you’re not good enough and (the most hassle) filing your self-employment tax. But I know all that now and I accept all the complexities that go with it. It’s not at all easy and I’m trying to be patient.
Thank you to everyone who showed their support (whether through DMs or likes or actually hiring me for projects) especially to my husband who really believes that I can achieve whatever it is I want to achieve. It’s just my first year and I’m still trying to figure things out while continuously learning and improving. I gave up my full-time job and a formal art education believing that I can do this all on my own. And I still believe that. Maybe that’s the most important thing of all—believing that you can do it.
Sabi nga ni Emma Stone:
I’m a person who relies very heavily on intuition and feeling out the situation. So I’ve never really made a five-year plan or anything like that. If it’s right, it will fall into place and if not, I understand.
Curious ka kung bakit sikat ‘tong book na ‘to sa mga productivity gurus sa YouTube
You appreciate endless explanations detailing countless studies and experiments from decades of research by a Nobel Prize winner author
Sa personal reading journey ko, yung non-fiction book na pinaka nag-cause ng mental strain sakin ay yung book ni Neil Postman na Amusing Ourselves to Death. Pero grabe ‘tong book na ‘to. Sobrang dense. Hindi ko kinakaya. Ang daming studies, experiments, statistics at word problems. Grabe talaga.
Nevertheless, eto yung mga natutunan ko sa librong ‘to:
Seek first to understand, then be understood (soon)
Synergize (soon)
Sharpen the saw (soon)
There’s no shortcut in self improvement. Most of the time we do things just because we know it’s the right thing to do or because we think that it’s the appropriate response (like saying sorry just to shut someone up). Hindi bukal sa loob kumbaga. Naalala ko tuloy yung isang tao na kilala ko na mukang religious pero may mga ginagawa syang mga bagay na hindi naaayon sa mga pinagsasabi nya. Sabi dito sa book, you can get by and make people believe that you are a good person; but sooner or later, what’s really inside you will eventually present itself.
Our level of development is fairly obvious with tennis or piano playing, where it is impossible to pretend. But it is not so obvious in the areas of character and emotional development. We can “pose” and “put on” for a stranger or an associate. We can pretend. And for a while we can get by with it—at least in public. We might even deceive ourselves. Yet I believe that most of us know the truth of what we really are inside; and I think many of those we live with and work with do as well.
Two rival chicken restaurants. Two sisters who hate each other. Amanda is team Chicken Frannie’s and Mae is team Chicken Mimi’s. The feud will escalate when they compete in the popular TV show, ‘Food Wars’.
Ingredients: spilled family secrets, deliberate sabotage, and a $100,000 cash prize for the Food Wars winner.
Aside from being a Reese’s Book Club pick, I got attracted to the beautiful, bright yellow book cover and the title. And so I read the blurb and I find the premise really interesting. I think this book could be an entertaining movie or tv show.
Hindi ako mapakali. Masyado akong overstimulated. Ang daming magagandang libro, ang daming magagandang panoorin, ang daming magagandang gawin. Hindi ko na alam kung anong uunahin. Sa mga panahong ganito, ang pinakamagandang gawin ay ito. As in itong ginagawa ko ngayon. Magsulat at magkwento.
Sabi ko nga kanina, ang daming magagandang libro. Sa dami ng librong interesado akong basahin, pitong libro yung tina-try kong tapusin ngayon.
Although nag-eenjoy naman ako, nakaka-bother lang na ang tagal ko nang walang natatapos na libro kahit ang dami kong oras na ginugugol pagbabasa araw-araw.
Anywayz, natutuwa akong mag-type. May bago kasi akong keyboard. Yung takatak keyboard. Nag-decide ako sa Keychron K2V2 after some grueling research. Thank you sa pambubudol ng Intelligent People Discord server. Pero tumupad pa rin naman ako sa pramis kong hindi ako bibili ng kahit anong gadget this year kasi na-reimburse yung pinambili ko nitong mechanical keyboard. So wala pa din akong ginastos. Pero sana mapigilan ko yung sarili ko na bumili nung bagong lalabas na iMac this spring (ayon sa rumors). Baka pag hindi ako nakatiis mangutang ako sa travel fund naminhuhu.
My takatak keyboard.
Cashew back to his old favorite spot.
F na f ko lang yung filter.
Naalala ko ring gamitin ‘tong egg mold na ‘to. Cute! Walang egg yolks kasi ginamit ko sa carbonara.
Tinatamad akong mag-drawing nung mga panahon na ‘to pero pinush ko pa rin habang nakikinig ng audiobook. Natuwa naman ako na pinush ko. Pinapagalitan pa ko ni Kenneth bakit daw hindi ako sa table nag-ddrawing at baka sumakit nanaman daw yung kamay ko. Hindi ko pinapansin kasi nasa momentum na ko. Eh di ayun. Sumakit nga ng konti.
Finally dumating na ang kanilang bahay. Ang cute!!
Nag-agawan pa sila nung una pero after non hindi na nila ginamit. Cats 🤦🏻♀️
Excited ako pumuntang Costco kasi more than a year na kaming hindi nakakapunta. Tapos ganito yung pila. Hindi kami tumuloy.
Hindi ako nagkakape except sa occasional iced coffee. As in super occasional. Pag trip ko lang. Tapos dapat matamis at madaming kung anek anek para hindi sobrang lasang kape. Pero nag-decide ako na maging coffee drinker starting yesterday kasi nabasa ko dun sa isang book na binabasa ko (The Whole-Body Microbiome) yung iba-ibang benefits ng kape. Pero para hindi masyadong lasang kape, nag-try ako nitong coffee creamer. Ang sarap!
So nag-request ako kay Kenneth kung pwede kaming bumalik sa Costco nung hapon kasi baka hindi na mahaba ang pila. Buti na lang! Buti na lang pumayag! 10 minutes away lang ata yung Costco from our apartment pero sobrang tamad ni Kenneth mag-drive! Sana makapasa na ko sa next road test ko para hindi na ko nakadepende sa kanya.
Back to Intelligent People Discord, nasabik ako bigla mag-watercolor ulit kasi yun ang pinaguusapan recently. Pero wala yun sa plano ko ngayon. Ang plano kong gawin ngayon ay manood ng tutorials para makapag-drawing ako ng backgrounds. Pero pwede naman sigurong pareho. Why not.
During the course of reading the book, I think I experienced equal parts of annoyance and admiration. There were a lot of comments about her being self-absorbed (and a ton other hateful adjectives) but in her defense, she didn’t travel the world to become a philanthropist (although did everyone forget about the fundraising she did?)
I think there’s nothing wrong with dedicating an entire year just for yourself if you’ve been through something that you feel is extremely painful. And whether people understand it or not (I know I didn’t), it’s none of their business.
Gleniz da Menace 