Gleniz da MenaceI have parts of myself that I’m not a fan of, and I’m sure I have not-so-great traits that people see clearly but I’m oblivious to. But I realized that I have to accept my temperaments and trust that people can handle me, or better yet, let me know if I’m being too much—or too little. I have to trust that people who care about me will *kindly* bring my blind spots to my attention. People who genuinely want me to improve will not tolerate my shittiness.
I read this New Yorker article about friendship, ‘The Trouble with Friends’. Feeling ko, it was a reality check. Narealize ko, my hope and aim for friendships were too idealistic and childlike. Ang nakatatak sa utak ko, “Gusto ko lang naman ng someone ngayon kung pano kami ng grade school bestfriends ko noon.” Yung updated kami with every single little ganap ng isa’t isa. Yung tanggap namin yung pettiness, we talk every single day, walang nakikipag-compete, we want to hangout as much as possible, etc.
For some naive reason, I still hope for this kind of friendship. But this article opened my eyes to the truth: adult friendships are just different. Old friendships won’t be as tight-knit as before, and some will just slowly falter. Your friends, no matter how inseparable you were, and no matter how close you are until now, will end up in different geographic locations—ako pa nga yung isa sa mga unang umalis, so ano bang nirereklamo ko?
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I am a regular user of ChatGPT. In fact, I use it everyday. Sya na yung Google ko—minsan therapist. Speaking of therapy, I will share my therapy experience one of these days. One thing I can say about it is, I highly highly recommend it. Lalo na sa mga anxious and easily overwhelmed people like me. Minsan kelangan mo lang umiyak at maglabas ng mga stuff na wala kang mapagsabihan, habang may nakikinig na professional na alam mong ilang beses na nyang narinig yung mga sinasabi mo, so malaki yung chance na hindi ka nya i-judge.
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I am sooo overwhelmed. Wala na kong work at hindi na ko pumapasok pero parang 18 hrs akong nagtrabaho kahapon. 3:30AM gising na ko. Sabi ko magmo-morning routine muna ako para kalmado ang simula ng araw ko, kasi alam kong madami akong aasikasuhin para sa paglipat namin. Pero nung napa-check ako ng e-mail ko, ayun, nagdire-diretso na hanggang 9PM. Parang ang dami kong adrenaline kahapon. Hindi ako nagugutom. Pag wala akong kausap at ka-email, maglilinis ako ng apartment. Akala ko mahaba yung magiging tulog ko kasi ang dami kong ginawa. Pero eto, gising na ko ng 4AM.
I knew October would be a great month, and it did not disappoint 🤍
The major thing that happened this month was our first US trip! I think almost all of my October entries are related to this trip. And yes, hindi pa rin kami nakakamove on ni Kenneth. We still talk about it every chance we get 😂
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The commonplace section of my notebook is my favorite. I call it my ‘life notes’—a collection of quotes, insights, book excerpts, fun facts, new words I’ve learned—gathered for future reference. I have a digital version of this in my Notion where I can easily search for keywords, but I eventually stopped updating it. There’s just something extra satisfying when I see it on paper. Also, I can circle and underline words, I can add stickers, put my little comments on the side, and I just feel like I retain more from what I write rather than from what I type.
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I was excited to go stationery store hopping in New York—especially whenever I see Raquel’s NYC posts and videos. Well, I was excited in general because it was our first time visiting the States. Being first-timers, there were a lot of things in our itinerary, but I’m glad I was able to squeeze in some time to go to stationery stores.
I managed to check out four shops, and I wasn’t really looking for anything in particular—I just went with whatever caught my interest. It might be dangerous to wander into these stores without some kind of a list, but my journaling friends tell me that I have the most restraint when it comes to stationery shopping, so I trusted myself that I won’t go overboard 😁
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First, my best buy and bye-bye of the week. I am going to exclude all food items because I’m just going to list almost everything we ate.
I am no collector of anything. Some people are into shoes, bags, books, toys, etc. But personally, I just couldn’t relate. I feel like I’m hoarding. It seems impractical. To be clear, I don’t mean this as a badge of honor, I’m just saying what makes sense in my head. I don’t see the point in having five pairs of shoes when I only wear one pair at a time. I rotate between two pairs, one black and one white. It’s just so easy to pair with anything.
I guess I’m also too lazy to style and mix and match. If I only have two pairs, and if it’s black and white, it would only take me 2 seconds to decide which one I want to wear that day. If I were a guy, I would probably one of those annoying men who owns a stack of the same black shirt and just wear those everyday.
I’m the total opposite of my mom who loves bags and has a cabinet full of decorative plates and cups on display. It’s also possible that the more I see my mother collect these bags that are taking up so much space in her already crowded room, the more I veer away from being that way. I share all of these little anecdotes about practicality only to say that, the moment I saw this crybaby things, something has shifted haha. Suddenly, I wanted to get my hands on these cute little things! I guess I just hadn’t found anything I was truly drawn to—until that evening when we were strolling around this random mall and saw a Pop Mart vending machine.
Having made a blog post of me being such a crybaby, this blind box toy spoke to me. It’s just so me! When I saw the side of the box with all the possible crybabies I could get, I’d be happy with any of them. Huhu they’re all so adorable. And those teary eyes? Ugh, too cute. I think my favorites are 01 and 06.
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I’ve been writing a lot for my blog over the past few days. I don’t know why I’m so excited about it. It feels like I’m doing something important when I’m actually not. I guess I just have a lot to say to no one in particular, and I’m glad to have the space to let it out. I’m living for that moment of possibility when someone, somewhere, would read it out of curiosity. I’m aware a handful of people read the blog, but it still feels unbelievable. I don’t even care if they like it or not, I’m just thankful for their time.
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Gleniz da Menace