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Itβs been a while! There have been many things to feel unhappy about recently, but there were still moments to be grateful for despite the past heavy months.
Kenneth and I went to a community market and saw Bea, my illustrator friend, with her sister, also an artist. They were selling art prints and other cutesy artsy stuff. Aside from the prints and stickers, her sister also offers 5-minute live portraits for $5, and thatβs what caught my interest. We had our portraits drawn and it was super cute!

The following week while we were doing our couples deck session, we drew a wild card and it prompted us to draw each otherβs portraits for only 1 minute!

Haha that was fun.
I am currently relistening to Mark Mansonβs βbackwards lawβ podcast episode, and I found myself involuntarily reaching for my copy of The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck, which my sister gave as a bon voyage gift when we moved to Canada in 2018.

My sister filled this book with pictures of us, photos of our favorite movie/tv characters, inside jokes, and sweet messages. I havenβt finished this book yet, which means I havenβt read everything she had written down, and I love that there are still sweet notes to uncover after 6 years.
Day off finally! Random thoughts:
Nagising, nag-poop, nagtimbang.

Nag-gain nanaman ako. And for the first time ever, mas magaan na sakin si Kenneth. Almost 10kg na kasi yung na-lose nya ever since nagstart syang mag-keto diet at mag-workout almost everyday. Ugghh hindi ko kaya yung discipline nya. Minsan nakaka-inspire pero minsan nakaka-demotivate. But ultimately, Iβm proud of him because he did this all by himself. Walang nag-push or nag-pressure sa kanya. Nanood lang kami nung docuseries sa Netflix na You Are What You Eat at yun na! Bigla na lang syang nag-decide maging healthy. That was 6 months ago and he never stopped. Hays, sana kaya ko din yung ganun.
Na-appreciate ko yung βHappy wedding anniversaryβ greetings sa family group chat without a single comment about pagkakaron ng anak. At kung naglalaro man yun sa isip nila, I still appreciate that they held their tongues (or thumbs). Itβs just so refreshing. Thereβs hope! Boomers are learning!!
Sana wag mabati.
Nalaman ko na nagbabasa pala ng blog ko ang mga tita ko. Hello Ate Bengsya and Ate Gigi (at kung sino pang family member na hindi ako aware) π I didn’t expect na magiging interested silang magbasa ng mga sinusulat ko, kaya naman yung mga bagay na hindi pa dapat nila malaman, nagkakaron na pala sila ng idea. Nakakatawa tuloy yung mga theories nila.
I started drafting this entry nung beginning of June pa lang. Ang saya pa ng tone nung pagkakasulat ko that time. I even claimed this year to be one of the best ones. But after just a month, it went from being one of the best to one of the worst.
May nagtanong sakin dati, bakit ako komportable magkwento dito whether nakakahiya, nakaka-proud, nakaka-conscious, nakakalungkot, etc. Kasi parang ang hirap daw. Bakit daw ang dali lang sakin. Wala akong instant na naisagot. Kasi for the longest time, I just write without actually questioning it.
Feb 15-19
Halos buong araw nasa bahay lang ako ng lola ko. May pa-going away lunch for Mclein at AJ kasi pabalik na silang Canada. As usual, super iyak ang Mommy hehe.
