introspection – Gleniz da Menace

Q: What is my why?

A: To live comfortably but simple, while having enough time and resources to travel and do my hobbies (reading, playing the piano, learning languages).

Q: But this is what I’m already doing now (except for the traveling).

A: So my goal is to maintain this lifestyle? Maybe I should add another layer to my purpose.

Q: Okay. I want to sustain and nourish my relationships with people I care about and help the world become a better place. What do I have to do now?

A: So put more effort in connecting with people and hustle more to earn extra income to help the world.

Challenges:

Not recognizing that I’m already living 70-80% of the life that I desire because I’m not used to this kind of feeling — the feeling of satisfaction. I didn’t expect that this would come early in my life.
Aways attaching monetary value to my hobbies which makes me feel pressured. It strips the enjoyment that comes from that hobby. Sometimes, a hobby is just a hobby.
Taking for granted the amount of time that I have. Or maybe I’m already making use of my time in the best way possible and I just fail to recognize it because my work is unconventional. This is a reminder to go easy on yourself because of your health condition.

Advice:

It’s alright to do a variety things. It sparks creativity. Just give more focus to the one thing that is the most purposeful.
You don’t have to have a label.

How You Like That?

I’m not the biggest fan but I watched the BLACKPINK docu because it seemed really interesting. The question that came to mind after watching it was, “What is your goal and how badly do you want it?” It made me realize that I am doing very little to reach my goal and made me question myself. How badly do I want it? The docu is good btw.

So how badly do I want to be a great artist? Not as much? Is that why I’m not doing the best I can? Is it because I don’t really want it that bad? Is that fine? Am I lacking passion? Is it okay to not be so passionate about something? Is it because we can get by even if I’m unemployed? So is that the reason why I don’t put much effort because nothing is at stake? That is possible.

I enjoy doing art, sure. But when I feel pressured because I’m not as good as the artists that I look up to, it’s not so fun anymore. Maybe I’m just not the type of person who works well under pressure. But sometimes, without that pressure, I tend to relax too much. Which isn’t good also. So the answer is? BALANCE.

Gusto ko talaga yung mga ganitong moments na tanong ko sagot ko. Galing ko talaga mag-advice. Sana naman i-follow ko.