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March Recap

Out of sorts ako ngayong month na ‘to. Kung ano-anong iniisip ko. Magbabakasyon kasi si Kenneth sa Pilipinas, and although I’m excited for him kasi this is the first time na uuwi sya since nag-move kami dito sa Canada 7 years ago, I will be lying kung sasabihin kong 100% excitement yung nararamdaman ko. I’m just overall worried. Plus first time kong magsosolo sa bahay at hindi ko alam kung anong i-eexpect. Sobrang maiinip ba ko? Magiging mabait ba si Kenneth? Baka may mag-break in dito sa bahay! Kenneth will be gone for 3 weeks and being alone here—especially in this new city—is a foreign concept to me.

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Bakit Hindi US?

From the drafts (2 years ago):

After ng oathtaking namin kahapon, may mga naisip lang akong kwento. Nung kaka-migrate pa lang namin dito sa Canada, na-wirdohan ako dun sa reaction nung isang certain friend na nasa Pilipinas. Bakit daw Canada. Bakit daw hindi US? Huh. Una, hindi ba ang normal reaction sa mga ganung sitwasyon ay, “Congrats!” or “Happy for you!” Pangalwa, coming from someone na nagbalak makapuntang Canada pero hindi naging successful, bakit may judgment? Sa isip ko, diba ikaw hindi ka nga naging okay pa-Canada tapos ita-try mo kong i-shame or ma-feel bad sa choice namin? Tsaka bakit kelangan kong i-defend yung choice namin? Weird. Minsan talaga may ma-eencounter kang mga tanong na sa sobrang unexpected, di mo alam ang isasagot. And this was coming from a super duper close friend (well, ex super duper close friend) kaya na-caught off guard ako.

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My Favorite Love Language

As someone na ang favorite love language to receive ay words of affirmation, pakiramdam ko hindi ako ganun ka-satisfied kasi hindi natural kay Kenneth ang pagiging expressive. Napagusapan na naman namin ‘to, pero talagang may mga bagay na hindi kayang pilitin. Okay lang. Na-accept ko na. Kaya naman pag nakaka-receive ako ng compliments from other people, SOBRANG nakakataba ng puso. And because words of affirmation rarely come my way, sinunod ko yung napanood kong idea na gumawa ng album sa phone, with screenshots of messages from people expressing their appreciation and sending uplifting statements.

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Ramblings #53

Sakit sa heart 💔🐥

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You Need to Cry

For days now, I’ve been ignoring my pelvic pain—maybe even weeks, I’m not sure. My constant pelvic pain is a reminder that I have endometriosis, something that probably won’t ever go away. Ten years of having this condition (going through two palliative surgeries and tons of hormone-altering pills and injections), medical science still doesn’t have much to show for it. The most I could do is get regular ultrasounds just to make sure those pesky cysts remain manageable in size (I hate that they’re also called ‘chocolate cysts’ because I love chocolates).

I try to ignore this pain as much as I can because it stirs up feelings of hopelessness and sadness. And when I feel those things, they only add more stress to my body, which in turn brings more harm since stress worsen the symptoms of endometriosis. So I ignore away. When the pain is sudden and intense, that’s the only time I unwillingly acknowledge the pain because ignoring it is impossible. But as soon as it dies down, I go right back to ignoring it, thinking what I’m doing is for the best.

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February Recap

Sobrang distracted ko panonood ng Crybaby unboxing videos nung mga nakaraang araw na andami kong na-postpone na little tasks, like this monthly recap. Ngayon medyo nag-settle down na yung obsession ko sa Crybabies, but it got replaced by a live feed of bald eagle parents feeding their eaglets. Sooo cute! And I really can’t believe it! Nagugulat na lang si Kenneth pag napapasigaw ako ng malakas.

“AHHHH! OOOMMMMGGGG!!”

“Bakit?”

“NAG-HATCH NA RIN YUNG PANGATLONG EGG!!!”

“Sabi na nga ba eh.”

Cute!!!

The first year I tuned in, bugok yung eggs. None of the three eggs hatched. It was quite heartbreaking. The following year, the same thing happened. Then this year, I was barely tuning in (to avoid another heartbreak) when I saw on my feed that the eggs were starting to hatch! Agghhh! I’m just so happy—that I can’t help writing about it in Ramblings #52. The feeling was just too intense. What an amazing thing to witness. I love watching the feeding sessions and wanting to make sure that all three eaglets are being fed equally (as dominant eaglets tend to get the majority of the food). Okay, I’ll stop with the eagle talks now and get on with last month’s recap.

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Ramblings #52 | Egg-citing!

As a follower of this eagle nest since 2023, this makes me SOOOOO happy!🥹

And the 3rd egg is in the process of hatching as well! AGGHHH!!
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Happy Things #25 | Healthy Cats + Anime Binge + Nokia 3310

Walnut’s okay!

Walnut’s health scare is over! Feeling ko hindi naman talaga sya na-poison nung lily kasi naisuka nya naman agad, pero sabi pa rin nung vet, kelangan syang i-monitor for 72 hours to make sure hindi tinamaan yung kidney. Thankfully, normal yung apat nyang blood tests and she’s in the clear. Ang nakakaasar lang ay yung pilay nya caused by the nurses nung tina-try nilang i-restrain si Walnut para kunan ng dugo. Ka-badtrip. Accountable naman sila ang they will cover all expenses related to her limp (dapat lang!), pero nakakainis pa din. I think nag-iimprove naman yung pilay nya and aside from that, she’s healthy and well and back to her old self.

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Why I Like to Write

Among the many reasons why I like to write, I think one of them is the desire to be understood. As someone with a resting bothered face, I’ve been misunderstood countless times. Sobrang puzzled ko pag sinasabihan ako ng mga tao—including my relatives, my own mother even—“Bakit ka nakasimangot?” “Itsura mo para kang galit.” When in reality, I’m not mad whatsoever. I’m just existing. I am neutral. I’m a hundred percent sure that my facial muscles are completely relaxed. But to them, I seem to be exuding some kind of negative aura. Nung highschool days napapaaway pa ko. Ang sama ko raw makatingin.

Muka namang angel ah 😆
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Today’s Log #22 | Days Lately

February 13, 2025

6:00 AM

Woke up, shat, wrote on my digital journal about yesterday’s happenings, read a newsletter, saw vomit (probably Walnut’s) and cleaned that up, fed the kitties, and scooped their litter. This is my morning routine nowadays.

8:00 AM

I decided I’ll have the pork ribs from Costco. I can air-fry them from frozen, so it’s a quick prep. I still have some roasted veggies from yesterday that I can pair it with. Kaso ang dry. Wala akong sauce or dip. So I asked ChatGPT for suggestions and settled on an easy sauce using ingredients I already have: garlic butter soy sauce. I can pour it over the crispy ribs to give them a little bit of moisture.

I’m half-listening to Trevor Noah’s podcast while making the sauce. I think they’re talking about the loneliness epidemic.

9:00 AM

K lang.
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